I have thought alot about this video, the young woman losing her BF to his addictions
Since the googles tsays it's Pinks' birthday, I decided to post it.
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... what are your thoughts?
-Laelth
I'll write it out again.
My sponsor is a huge proponent of writing things out for me.
In the video. --A young white hetero couple.
The bedroom setting looks like a down at the heels setting, so a day at the counrty fair is a treat. I remember saving up for days like that.
--"believed what you said" She is angry at him for his lies
--addicts lie ALOT
--on the tilt a whirl scene, he looks sick, motion sick or withdrawal sick?
--well he is shooting up, early in the day, as she sleeps next to him, withdrawal then, he has been using for awhile, cause he has his works.
--the shame in his face as he turns towards her, he cares about her, but the drugs are more important-that shame that addicts feel is real, and it circles in our lives and we use to quiet it
--they are at a carnival 'shooting' game, he slips off, looking for his pusher? A place to shoot up? Pattern looks like he has been using a while, reinforcing his shame from earlier
--she goes looking for him, bet it has happened before
--she finds him slumped over in an OD, maybe dead?
--in the centrifuge carnival ride their hands reach towards each other, but he slips away from her hand
--she calls for help and walks away crying.
I have heard versions of this story in the rooms, yet this is a visual NA/AA story.
Someone who has lived thru their addiction or a loved ones addiction knows this story.
More clear?
Added I do use addict/alcoholic/occasionally junkie interchangeably.