Numb....
My Best Friend was a guy. An Ex-Boyfriend, not Husband. He died on Monday and with each passing hour, its getting more real he's never coming back. Twenty two years. Two in a relationship, the last twenty just friends. He was my the person always there when a ear was needed or to hang out with just to get away from it all.
I felt so numb and miss, my Best Friend 
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I do know what you mean by numb and it's normal. So is not feeling like eating. Be gentle with yourself. Eat when you can, sleep when you can, and cry when you need to. Be assured that what you are going through is normal for grieving. There's no time frame for grieving so don't push yourself.
I hope you get some rest. Hold on to friends and family to help you through it and we are here for you.
Best friends are golden. I hope you have others in your life who you are close to and can be supportive. But a best friend is a BEST FRIEND!
You will miss him forever. It doesn't really get any better but it does get different. You're a long way from that right now. I hope that you can take some solace in the joy filled memories you hold dear in your heart.
Friends go beyond forever I think .. You can still talk to him and your heart will always hear his voice.
my sincerest condolences to you and to those who loved and knew him.
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kesha