Weekly Ludi #12
Weekly Ludi #12 is a song called MEDIOCRITY...it’s a tragicomic song about personal fallibility and self-doubt from my album Rise Above or Fall Below.
https://soundcloud.com/john-ludi/mediocrity
I awoke and realized that all my purposes are vain
and every path that I choose leads to another set of chains.
My will to transcend the world leads to more worldly pain,
as seemingly the worlds intent is to drive me insane.
I deserve a break...
My same old strident ego keeps on making its demands
while my juvenile emotions keep me from being a man.
Any solid ground where I tread just dissolves into sand
and everything just falls apart no matter how I plan.
I deserve a break...from me! Mediocrity.
Someone's getting in my way, a malevolence I can't see
who drags me into situations of grief and misery.
He sets me up for failure and observes my fall with glee
(yet in my quiet moments I know that malevolence is just me).
(Love me...love my excuses.)
This empty life, this hallow curse, every tear, every fear, I get worse and worse.
All failed glories I have stalked, every stumbling mile I walk,
every well-meant plan that fails, all potential freedoms jailed...
it's not my fault! (it's ALL my fault!) Blame me? Blame me!