Addiction & Recovery
Related: About this forumI started having drinking dreams again
The other night I had a dream I was in a restaurant and the people I was with were having glasses of real expensive wine. I asked if I could have a tiny sip and someone said, "Absolutely not! You quit drinking!" Then last night in my dream, I had a big glass of red wine in front of me. My wife mentioned that I wasn't supposed to be drinking and I said I'm only having one glass. She said, "Then that's okey".
What's weird is I haven't had any drinking dreams in ages!
FalloutShelter
(12,749 posts)There is so much stress right now.
Happy little trees, Mark, happy little trees.
Karadeniz
(23,423 posts)bif
(24,002 posts)Rhiannon12866
(222,224 posts)In the beginning, I'd wake up and panic since I was sure that I'd really had a drink. But then the dreams changed, I'd be looking for a drink, and couldn't find one - and I'd feel guilty. One dream that stuck with me was about a liquor store - which was run by my AA sponsor! And those I ran into there - in my dream - were other women I knew in recovery. And I couldn't find what I was looking for there, either. The important thing to know is that this is normal.
Eliot Rosewater
(32,536 posts)and I have been clean and sober (with the condition of using Suboxone for 22 yrs, I realize some in the anonymous community dont consider that being clean, I would like to discuss that in another thread.)
And it is just as perplexing and upsetting as they were when I was a newbie.
Rhiannon12866
(222,224 posts)I had 14 years on April 30th, in the beginning I didn't think I could make a week. And, as they say, there are a lot of miracles on this thread, including you.
Eliot Rosewater
(32,536 posts)Congrats on that!
(14 days is huge also, I remember those days)
Rhiannon12866
(222,224 posts)And one of the two others I celebrated my first year sober with was also on Suboxone. Last I knew he was doing okay, but my friend who had two years when I had one ended up going back out - and still is. They both were in county treatment court, treatment instead of jail, and had worked so hard. *sigh*
And I remember well not thinking I could make 14 days, but I stuck with it. I now lead an AA meeting on Mondays and represent my group at District, second time I've done that. My previous "home group," a beginners' meeting, hasn't met since the pandemic since it was at a residential treatment center.
And I'm making brownies for a meeting next Sunday, it's a celebration for a woman who has 47 years - July 4. 1976!