I made an ass out of myself yesterday. I let my past get ahold of my present. I took a acet/cod

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tablet even though I had no physical pain. The embarrassment I felt was awful.

[Twoflower]

1. We all have difficult days.

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2. It was something I posted and I am so embarassed I exposed my weakness and failings in front of many

people.

[onecaliberal]

5. Today is a new day.

We care about you.

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6. Thank you.

[MLAA]

3. Today is a new day and you've taken responsibility ❤️

Sending you a big, giant, hug.

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4. Thank you.

[XanaDUer2]

7. It's ok

Don't beat yourself up.

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10. I felt down about it. My reaction to the situation was fear and crying. I was hoping the thread in

lounge would sink like a rock. It hasn't. the incident I discussed brought back all the awful memories and triggered me to a flashback of me getting beaten by my brother instead of seeing a neighbor beating his dog. I did call the police only after posters told me to. I don't think that some understand a life of abuse. I wanted to help the dog from the trumper but was frozen within my memories. And I still have to wait to May to see my new doctor.

[Skittles]

8. take it from Maude (from Harold and Maude)

"Everyone has the right to make an ass out of themselves....you just can't let the world judge you too much."

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11. Thank you Skittles.

[Diamond_Dog]

9. Who among us

Hasn’t done or said something we wish we hadn’t? No one, that’s who.

deb you’re a valued member of the DU community. Don’t beat yourself up. You’re among friends here.

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12. Thank you Diamond. You know the post I am talking about. I feel like useless and a loser again after

that.

[emulatorloo]

13. You aren't a loser and you for sure aren't useless.

You just had a bad day. Like we all do now and again.

[Diamond_Dog]

14. NO. Don't say that.

There’s nothing more you could have done that wouldn’t risk your own safety. It’s crappy and it sucks but bad shit happens all the time. I am sorry you had that awful experience. I hate that there are people in the world like that. You’re better than they are because you have basic compassion and empathy. Those monsters are the losers. Not you.

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15. I posted it in the Lounge. Abuse and PTSD is not something I asked for. I will never , I'm afraid

out of this. Earlier tonight I wan't to take the whole bottle of painkillers. Took one and asked husband to hide bottle.Thank you for your kind words. However, I believe in the spirit of the soul.

[Ziggysmom]

16. Please don't beat yourself up, we all have a breaking point. I empathize and can feel the pain

in your situation. I had an embarrassing day 3 weeks ago. I work full time but my husband is 10 years older and disabled from COPD. He fell last month and broke his hip ending up hospitalized 10 days. He was extremely confused and agitated for days after surgery; it was pure hell to see him like that and I was very worried. By day 5 postop he finally got better mentally and I was needed at work, so I drove to my office where we have an attached concrete parking structure. I know I was preoccupied and not sleeping well but thought I was ok to drive. As I was pulling into a parking spot I hit the gas instead of the brake, hitting a concrete wall extremely hard. I had bruises on my chest where the seat belt restrained me and the force jolted my neck badly.

I was SO embarrassed I wanted to crawl in a hole and hide. I really hated myself for doing such a stupid thing. Isn't it funny how we hold ourselves to a higher standard than those around us? I beat myself up about my accident for many days. I find it's so much harder to for me to forgive myself when I make mistakes, as opposed to forgiving others.

I've rambled too much. Hope you are healing, you're among friends at DU.
Here's a sincere hug:

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17. Oh Ziggysmom, i am so sorry for you. I am glad you are okay now. I found when I was in college my

all were dealing with etreme family issues. We didn't look for each other, but for some reason we were drawn to each other. Yes, it is very hard to forgive ourselves.Maybe we set a higher bar for ourselves then we do for others? That we have to be perfect and make no mistakes. I wish you well my friend. thank you for your kind words. My husband has COPD. right now it is not too bad. I wish you and you husband all the love in the world.

[OldBaldy1701E]

18. For what it is worth.

You are okay. You should vent when you can. I do it here all the time and always feel embarrassed about it. But, it is so much better to let it out. We are here. You are here with us. We care and want you to feel better.

[Not Heidi]

19. This. n/t

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21. Thankyou Not Heidi

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23. Not Heidi, I also want to thank you for the strength and courage you gave me by writing your story

about "Karen". I saw the strong person that you are and it helped me with writing my other post. Again, thank you,

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20. Thank you OldBaldy.

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24. Thank you Old Baldy.

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22. My post still has't dropped. I feel like I was being staked by two posters. I got up this morning at

4:30 and had screaming .My husband was asleep. So was son. Here I am in the middle of the night searching the house for someone. I am very nervous. I was going to wake husband up to take me to the hospital. I felt like I lost it.I am mad,very mad.and hurt and everything keeps running through my head.

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25. I am feeling better. Thank you everyone for your kind words. Thank you from my heart.