Overthinking I do it.

[irisblue]

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[XanaDUer2]

1. Me too

I overthink and ruminate. I'm working on. Mind fulness. I think about the past constantly. I extrapolate bad things into the future. I wear myself out. Even mood stabilizers do not alleviate it.

I hear you

[Walleye]

2. I often think my past is filled with regret, future with dread

Not healthy. Working hard to stay in the present tense.

[XanaDUer2]

3. Yes

Dread is the word. It used to not be like this. It's taking a toll on my functioning. I just want peace

[Walleye]

4. After my boyfriend died suddenly of a heart attack I had to eliminate certain words

From my mental vocabulary, such as would’ve, could’ve, and should’ve. Just to keep from screaming and raving and anger every time I got the chance. It takes a lot of conscious effort. Instead of saying to myself, “I should’ve done something” I say “I didn’t do something”. End of mental conversation. I still have to fight against it all these years later

[XanaDUer2]

5. Thanks

[OldBaldy1701E]

6. For some of us, it cannot be helped.

I am very good at building crosses. I still marvel over the fact that my husband can put up with me when that component gets flipped on. I know how bad I can be and I apologize to him whenever I can about it.