I am having a hard time with reality lately. I mentioned about how the insurance agent

[Maraya1969]

told the claims department that I ran over a pipe in front of his business. I spoke with some insurance fraud guy today, (I found him.....no one ever called me) and his lackadaisical attitude infuriates me to the point that I want to drink and I'm not supposed to drink. Every picture I sent him of my car and the date of the picture came back as "Blocked" for a reason I forgot

And this morning I got notice that a car that I rented in Portugal and did crack up the bumper of that car just got posted in my bank and I know I can now file it with the insurance agency but I got all upset because I can't stand taking care of little details, especially on the computer because I can't remember where I put anything.

!!!! Well I just got a call from this place I used to go to a lot. It is called "Hope Clubhouse" and you have to have a mental illness to become a member but it is a working place. I called them this morning because I know they will help people take on things and I just got a call back and I'm going tomorrow with my computer and he is going to help me.

I still am crying. I may be grieving still. My mom died in 2020 and I miss her every day and my brother died in July of this year. I have had days where I don't want to go anywhere because I can't quit crying

Thank you for letting me share what I think is probably a bunch of sentences that don't make sense.

[Bayard]

1. So sorry you are going through this, Maraya1969

Its hard to deal with so much. I hope this counselor helps you with some of it.

[Thunderbeast]

2. CLUBHOUSES are a great resource

I hope the members can help you toward recovery. You are not alone

I am a huge advocate for the Northstar Clubhouse in Portland.

This is the web site for Clubhouse International:

https://clubhouse-intl.org/

[Maraya1969]

5. Yes they are great! And I love that once you become a member you are a member all your life.

I'm going tomorrow and one of the staff is going to help me fill in the insurance forms to send to the car agency. There are several people who have gotten jobs from them and they are still working.

[delisen]

3. Your sentences make sense.

Please be assured that your sentences make sense. 1 could understand them easily.

I am sorry for the loss your mother and brother. These losses are so recent it makes sense that you are grieving.

Congratulations to you for calling the Hope Clubhouse to get help with the computer issue. It sounds like a very useful place. When you are able please let us know how it worked out.

[XanaDUer2]

4. I'm sorry this happened

I understand. I am very, very easily overwhelmed these days. I would be spiraling from what you described.

Sounds like youre working the problem, though. Whole things sounds infuriating. Good luck

[cate94]

6. I am so sorry.

new grief seems to bring up older grief. I’m glad you can turn to the clubhouse for help.

[Maraya1969]

7. I never heard that before about grief but it makes sense. Of my family of origin I am the last one standing

I have a few cousins etc but they all live far away. I could fly to them if I wanted.

[DoBW]

8. Breathe

I was in a hole a long time, but i found a ladder