Woke up from nightmare last night

[XanaDUer2]

I was in an apt, woke up, went to the door. Peeked out the peephole and saw a middle-aged man in what looked like a tan LE uniform.

For some reason , I opened the door, and sort of knew I shouldn't have. He pushes in and I wake up. Yeah, I'm going through stress right now.

I rarely have nightmares.

[Siwsan]

1. I often have nightmares

Mostly about my old job. I also have nightmares where I'm lost, either while walking or driving, and can't find anyone to help me. Or I am exhausted and just can't take another step but, again, nobody hears or helps me.

I wake up in a cold sweat and a couple of times I've jarred awake and fallen right back to sleep, and right back in to the nightmare.

If I take an Ativan, I'll have really weird dreams, but not nightmares.

It's exhausting.

[XanaDUer2]

2. That sounds horrible

Sometimes ill dream I'm back at my job. That bums me. I once had a dream i was back in south Florida , almost hit a kid in front of his house, and the father comes out with a big knife and tries to stab me. I'm cutting my hands trying to keep the blade away from me.

You suffer from anxiety too, right?

[Siwsan]

3. Major anxiety issues

Some days are far more difficult than others.

[XanaDUer2]

4. I understand

I worry about serious illness, losing our apt, my SO dying leaving me alone, his prescription use, huge dental bills, never having a cheap condo, old car breaking down...money,

AND IT'S HORRIBLE WAY TO LIVE!I have an ultrasoung coming up. Dentist tomorrow.

It's like my brain is on track for anxiety. I'm on several meds. My therapist said try to be mindful and distract. Stop worrying about lack of control.
I try. I cry almost every session. I think he's getting sick of me, and I feel worse. You have the cats, I know.

[Siwsan]

5. My kidcats are my salvation

They give me so much more than I give to them - both the indoor and the outdoor sweethearts.

[XanaDUer2]

6. It's good you have them

My cat snuggles with me.

[no_hypocrisy]

7. My nightmares are based in personal PTSD.

Mostly that my father isn't dead and still persecuting me.

[OldBaldy1701E]

8. All I have but it is for you always.

[XanaDUer2]

9. TY Baldy

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