I'm at the point where NOTHING is easing my red-line anxiety

[Siwsan]

I see my therapist on the 8th.

Meanwhile, I'll just have to cope. I did manage to eat a bagel without throwing up, which is something stress and anxiety tend to trigger.

I'm fighting the urge to go back to bed. Unfortunately, I've got too much stuff to take care of. If the grass dries enough, I'll mow the lawns. If it warms up enough I'll do some garden work. I am forcing myself to NOT watch the news. Distract, distract, distract.

Everyone is busy, this weekend, so I'm on my own and it's going to rain. I'll try losing myself by binge watching SOMETHING. Maybe dig around On Demand for some good classic films. Hopefully the kidcats will accommodate my current emotional state and cuddle instead of cause mischief. Well, I can dream, can't I?

This is definitely not how I planned spending my waning years on earth. My kidcats deserve much better.

[niyad]

1. Huggggggggggggs. Your Kidcats have the best Mom, and they

love you, as does your whole DU family. I wish I could offer some stunningly helpful words of advice, just know that we are all holding you in love and light.

[Bluethroughu]

2. I can empathize with the anxiety.

I hope you find some joy that brings you great energy to push through.

[DUgosh]

3. Hugs

[blm]

4. Old movie watching

is always a good call. 🫶🏽

[2naSalit]

5. Kind of there with you...

My anxiety is pretty high lately too, I wish I could stop clenching my teeth.

I hope youcan find something to keep you busy so that you can relax.

[Siwsan]

6. Teeth clenching, fist clenching, and finding it hard to de-stress

I just mowed the house lawn AND the back lot, which is a pretty big piece of land. I never do both at the same time but I had to concentrate on what I was doing so my brain had to put its spin cycle on hold.

I think a hot soak in a bath of lavender scented Epsom Salts might be next on my agenda. Laundry can wait until tomorrow.

[2naSalit]

7. Lavender bath...

Is a good idea.

I smoke pot when I get tense, it helps a bit, sometimes I just use the CBD hemp, in tea, and that calms me down some too.

We have several days of dreary rain and cloudy weather, like into the middle of next week. Ugh.

At least I go to lunch with my neighbor today, that will be a nice change of scenery.

I hope the kitties come to your aid when you finally settle in for couch potato time!

[XanaDUer2]

8. I puke from anxiety too

It is HORRIBLE. Turn off the news. I did. Well, I peek sometimes to see if TFG is suffering. But I'm watching Bonanza and aliens. ID love to have a garden!

Your cats love you no matter what. I'm not one to talk. I take a benzo 3x a day.

Deep breaths.

[nitpicked]

9. Do you receive PBS stations?

I've been watching the nature and science shows, taking a break from resting up my healing shoulder.

I'm having to skip getting flowering plants this year, can no more tend to them than I could a feline.

Just don't trip and fall...