Back from my therapy session and I'm ready for a nap

[Siwsan]

Not just because of the appointment. The only thing I've eaten, for the last 24 hours, is a few slices of cheese. My appetite is gone and last night was the first night I slept for more than 2 or 3 hours. I had to do some things to pick up after I left the appointment and damn, that wiped me out.

He was, of course, fully of sympathy about the loss of Sian. He was shocked when I told him about the message I received from a non-blood related family member 'disowning' me because I got tired of arguing with her and pretty much told her to not concern herself with my priorities, what I do and why I do what I do. She's a bit of a narcissistic control freak so that didn't sit well. It's a long, YEARS in the making schism that didn't happen earlier because I was far too accommodating, forgiving, and willing to walk on egg shells every time I was around her. She just picked a really bad time to issue her verdict. It popped up just after we buried Sian and I was still in a state of shock and grief.

I purged myself of a lot, about her, that I've been holding on to, so that helps. He agreed I was justified in blocking her from any form of contact, unless she decides to mail me a letter and somehow I doubt she will go that route.

My next appointment with him will be a week after my psych eval, which is on the 14th.

Now I'm going to try and thing of something that might trigger my appetite. I picked up some temptations but I want to start off with something very light like toast and tea.

[blm]

1. Hugs for you.

[onecaliberal]

2. You deserve a nap! 💤

Hugs.

Life is too short to keep people around who add negativity to your life.

[2naSalit]

3. Sounds like...

A fruitful session.

Definitely do what you need to take care of yourself.

I am indoors today due to excessive heat, expecting at least +104F today and maybe tomorrow. I was ground soaking my garden at 6:30 this morning, will go after sunset and do it again, same deal tomorrow. Glad the whole thing is in the shade by 6pm.

Go easy on your tummy and maybe put a drop or two of cbd stuff in it.

[PikaBlue]

4. Good to hear from you!

I often have a temporary loss of appetite that results from grief. To "prime the pump" so to speak, I rely on a childhood favorite which is tapioca pudding. My mother would make it for me when I was small and whenever I was ill. She would always add a drop of food coloring to cheer me up. Other family members rely on "dippy toast" which is a soft boiled egg over small pieces of lightly toasted bread. I hope you can find a comforting pump primer to kick start your appetite. It sometimes seems so hard to even think about food when one's heart is breaking; however, food can nourish your soul as well as your body. Hoping you will feel in a better place soon.

[Siwsan]

7. It's funny you mention tapioca

I was just thinking about it, the other day. Haven't had it in ages so I think I need to cook up a batch.

I did make some buttered toast and also had a cup of tea. Managed to take a nap, which was great.

Now I'm being surrounded by my kidcats because it's VERY close to their dinner time. I'm going to make something for myself, too. If I can't finish it, I'll just put the leftovers in the refrigerator and try again, later.

[PikaBlue]

8. Continue to check in

Let us know how you are getting along each day. I have read your posts for several years. Love the way you set up shelters for your outdoor babies. We save large Styrofoam containers where I work. We receive large shipments of medical research supplies and we donate them, along with cat food, to local group that converts them into winter shelters for feral cat colonies.

[Siwsan]

9. I'm trying to come up with a couple of shelters for in front of the house

There are a couple of 'mystery' kittens that have shown up and they shelter from the rain on my front step, on the thin bit of concrete that stays dry. There is a nice space between the shrubs and the house that will be perfect.

I will keep checking in. I'm just hoping for a stretch of time with no trauma! It is exhausting, both emotionally and physically. BUT I did finally eat, tonight, so that's a positive step forward.

[kozar]

5. Therapy sessions, can be hard.

MrsK never understood why, I would tense before an appt. and then, a couple hours after, I felt better.
Siwsan, I'm at the point, after years of therapy, I look forward to them now.
I treat them as, my, "psyche shower", I get to talk without worries, about what's on my mind. I get feedback, pos or neg., point is, when I go to therapy, I am heard. That never happened in my family, who disowned me also.
When you go to therapy, remember 2 things, if I may.
1 you will be heard.
2 you may not get the response you want, because, #1 , you were heard.
Hoping best for you and the ferals,

Koz

[Siwsan]

6. Thanks, Koz

My therapist is a real good listener and takes LOTS of notes. No doubt those will be passed on to the PA who will be doing my medication assessment.

I did eat some buttered toast and washed it down with a nice cup of tea. Best of all, I fell in to a deep sleep for about 2 hours. My house panther, Gryff, was cuddled up with me.