I'm calmer

[XanaDUer2]

I was doing great. Then he pushed my jaw back hard and I'm experiencing pain. I'm not crazy. The depth of anger depression fear I'm feeling. Now is off the charts. I see no hope. I've been dealing w this over a yr and things were going well until he pushed my jaw hard. For complex reasons, i cannot get the money back and start over. Just believe me its too complex to go into.

I went from no pain to pain. I am so depressed now thete are no words. Got an apology from SO but i asked do u c y I'm so upset? Something something I'm bothering them and the dr will drop me as a patient n i brought this on myself by moving appmnt up per drs orders. Fuck you Nick.

Btw he claims hes in constant pain. I'm not sorry. Hes a horrible abusive prick. I have to drive him to pain management tomorrow too then c ythr dentist. I'm saying I'm in pain. Y can't i talk abt what is happening to me?!

ETA: TY concerned DUers. I mean you guys are pretty. Much all I have. Its embarassing but I'm at the end of my rope. The fact you all reached out means a lot and that you care about me and what happens and you listen to me. I feel so alone. My sisters good friend died today so I can't really talk to her. She didn't support my treatment and I'll hear I told you so.

[brer cat]

1. I'm glad you are calmer, but I feel terrible about the pain

and all that you have gone through. I wish there was more that we could do for you but I guess all we can do is be here for you.

[XanaDUer2]

2. For 32k

And based on rave reviews about them and everything i want it 100% perfect. No pain, no popping no problems.

[LoisB]

3. I am sorry you have so much pain. I will continue to pray for relief for you. Hang in there kiddo, I believe there

is a bright dawn coming. I am glad you are calmer. I revisit George McGovern's sunsets and sunrises when I need peace. Still, always remember the 988 number and DU if ever you get that close to the edge again.

Hugs XanaDUer2

[XanaDUer2]

6. Ty

[democratsruletheday]

4. might be time to talk to someone Xana....

you sound like a lot of anger and frustration has built up, and probably rightfully so. I've been there and done that myself and found that talking to a therapist was golden. Best of luck.

[XanaDUer2]

5. I do

Therapist every 2 weeks. He told me I'm resilient last week. Who knew. Things are so bad i feel like its not even helping. He's a good guy.