I just went through a year and a half of feeling and being alone more than usual but with hope but now because of particular circumstances I am now more lonely than I have ever been in my entire life.
When I was younger I went to school and was very quite and hoped the kids and teachers did not notice me because being lonely was better than what they said and did to me.
When no one wants you in their circles it takes a toll on your emotions and that is what happened in my youth.
I had friends on the outside that had nothing to do with school and that is what saved me. Most of my life my friends have been older than me and I had to wait to see them when school was done and they were done with work or the weekend. That tends to make you lonely most of the time.
I did have a friend in school that was alone also but we always had different lunches and classes. Her step mother would rarely allow her to be with her friends and when she did it was like being under someones thumb ( couldn't even play in her room. ) My mother did not drive so I could not get to my friends.
She was so desperate to not be lonely she ended up leaving the moment she could and get herself in with some bad men and eventually married one.