i wasnt looking for a puppy, but i had been on a waitlist in 2020 for a breeding that didnt take. same pair finally got another chance, and i couldnt pass this pup up. this breeder is a saint, and this is a truly quality pup. service dog level good.
i’m broke atm, and prolly shouldnt have. but i’m so glad i did.
she’s such a perfect girl. she’s 4 mos old, and i’ve had grown dogs that werent this well behaved.
i’m way too other oriented, and being alone makes it hard for me to be motivated to do anything. but i rly want to be the kind of mom this little angel deserves, and it’s got me taking walks and talking to ppl again. she imposes a certain amount of structure on my days which is useful.
and she’s rly helping my sleep. i cant believe i let this pup sleep in the bed, but she was not having being separated from her new pack. so instead of lights out being the moment when all the self talk gets bad, lights out is now- love up the pup, and settle her in for the night. sometimes she’ll snuggle up tight for a bit, but usually has to wander around for a few minutes. she’ll lay by each of the other dogs for a bit, but then she comes over an snuggles in by me wherever there’s room.
my 2 big boys keep me warm at night, and snuggle some. but this kid has to be up against me, has to have that contact.
in the past, love from my pets always seemed tinged w a bit of sadness, as a less than kind of love. but not this time. i’m sucking up all the puppy kisses and puppy love and grateful for it.
i dont understand how humans work any more. had my heart broke several times last year.
it’s not everything i wish i had, but it’s simple and warm and as good as it gets.
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