Bereavement
Related: About this forumWell it's been more than 6 months since Mom passed...
I'm glad I went to hospice for grief counseling, it's been a huge help. I was so depressed the first 2 months I could barely eat or sleep, the dr ended up giving me anxiety meds just to "take me down a notch"
I talk to mom all the time though. Knowing she's my personal guardian angel has really helped with missing her....BUT there's still those moments.
Was in the drive thru a couple blocks from their now empty house and John Denver "Take me Home" came on the radio and I ended up sitting in their driveway bawling and singing at the top of my lungs. I had been avoiding their house, because she is everywhere...the art on the walls, the tchochkis, just HOME. I had no plans to go there, but I got out and went to see if there were any roses left on her bush and tried the front door, it was open!
So I got to go inside alone, cried on her pillow, smelled her clothes, grabbed a couple pairs of tacky costume earrings that will remind me of her.
...and just yesterday, I called dad at Memory Care and when I got off the phone I had to just cry. I miss her voice! So much.
Anyway, just wanted to share. It still stings, and Christmas is gonna be a bitch.
MLAA
(18,654 posts)WVGal1963
(194 posts)Your post is so heartfelt and meaningful! How I wish I could wrap hugs around you right now.
Deuxcents
(19,960 posts)My mom died a week before Christmas 20 years ago this year. I still hear my mom in my heart and I hope that never goes away. Its not painful anymore n at times funny n I even admit to..ok, you were right! Hugs n best wishes for you and your family 🌺
magicarpet
(16,766 posts)Hugs from this direction too.
blm
(113,841 posts)Are neighbors caring for the house and left the door open?
RainCaster
(11,602 posts)You should feel good about that, and remember those wonderful moments.
FirstLight
(14,275 posts)through single parenting she was my backup...she was the one who talked dad into buying me a house so I wouldn't be screwed by renting, she fought teachers when I was a kid, and let me stay home sick because she knew I wasn't ok...
She is STILL my best guardian but damn, what I wouldn't give for one of her hugs
jfz9580m
(15,544 posts)I lost my mother to cancer 2 years back. In November it will be two years exactly.
She had a great oncologist, but multiple myeloma in your seventies is not easy.
I still miss her.