So I've been having a rough time lately... [View all]

[MLF1981]

I lost my job today because I have some physical conditions that make it hard for me to work like I could when I was 20 years younger, most of my family members are dead, the few friends that I have all live hundreds of miles away, and have their own shit to worry about. I've really been down in the dumps because of all of this. I've been asking myself, "What's the fucking point of all of this? Live another 30 or 40 years in poverty and misery? Why not just end it all now?"

But then today, the Youtube algorithm actually did me a huge favor... It showed me this video (warning, very graphic depiction of a man who was horribly burned):

And I said to myself, "If this man, who has a way worse lot in life than I do, can find the hope and fortitude to keep going, what excuse do you have?"

Sometimes, God, the universe itself, whatever you may believe gives you exactly what you need at exactly the right moment. I just hope that anyone else who reads this and is in the depths of despair can learn something important. I still don't know what the hell I'm going to do to make my rent and bills next month, but I have faith that things will work out in the end. And even if they don't, I realize that I'm very fortunate for my health, precarious as it is, and what I have in my life.