I appreciate what you said. And, I appreciate the meme. The only thing I would add to that meme is that it would be nice to get something back once in a while for all that giving. Besides pain and heartache I mean. Because from here, that is about all it gave me. Oh, I had some great times while touring, but they were fleeting. The suffering and disaster that is my 'career' spanned my entire adult life. A few moments of pleasure is just not enough to balance that. I am sure there will be those who are thinking, 'Wow, ungrateful wretch!' All I can say is that I am not ungrateful for the good times I have had. I am saying that they were not enough to offset the pain and suffering. I am saying that clinging to those fleeting moments is not enough to keep me from this despair. I am saying that there is just no reason for me to have failed so spectacularly unless it was by design. Meaning I never had a chance to begin with. But, I was told I did. I was told this repeatedly. I was told by everyone how good I was. I was told by everyone that The American Dream exists and that anyone could attain it. This was drilled into me since the freaking first grade.
To quote one of my song titles: They Lied.
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