A question about what I do normally in my garden, now can't, and what I should do about it. [View all]

[Denninmi]

Um, well, I have a problem in my life, it seems, and I don't know what to do about taking care of my plants and garden anymore. The past month, especially, I have let it slide. I've watered potted things enough to keep them alive. That is all.

I am sick. I'll spare the gory details for those who don't know or care to know.

And I don't know for sure if I will be up to speed in the future. It seems quite likely by spring I could be feeling great again, the treatment plan that doctors are going to start in about a week may offer significant hope for improvement to a state of normal health and energy, albeit on constant medications, monitoring, blood testing for the rest of my life. So I could be fine. In fact, that is the most likely outcome of this, that I'll get on medications and life will be back to normal.

But now, I am a mess. And fall is here, which means extensive cleanup, time to bring in all of the potted plants, those issues.

And I don't know if I'm up to it. As much as I hate the idea, I also know that the financial costs of my illness will mean in the future, I wont' be able to spend casually, only on things I NEED to survive. So, if I destroy everything now, I'll never have it back.

And if I don't destroy it, which would be the fast and easy way, I'm not sure I'm able to do what I need to do for fall cleanup.

And honestly, there isn't a single person I can ask for real life/physical help right now, so I am on my own.

So, trash it all, mourn it, and move on, or try to save what I can and hope the future is better?