Well, what I have wished for, for more than a year is finally here. And I'm so not ready for this.

[Dear_Prudence]

15. My dad had Parkinson's with Lewy body also.

Absolutely tortuous disease. The mental anguish, terror, and psychic pain experienced by the sufferer is beyond comprehension. Loved ones are helpless to alleviate the cruel psychotic delusions that torment the sufferer. On a visit to my house, my dad had a psychotic episode, injured my mother, and brandished a fire poker at family members; I repaired the wall that he struck. He finally went into a care home when my mom could no longer care for him. As he declined in that care home, I had trouble driving to work because, alone in the car, I would sob. What you wished for was your Mom's release from a living hell, even knowing that her departure would leave you grieving. She is no longer suffering. She is no longer in pain or afraid. And Glamrock, no one, not your late mom, not me, not your DU community, wants you to continue suffering. You could not alleviate her pain, but please take steps to alleviate the pain you now carry. I drowned out crushing thoughts by listening to library audio books, not 'War and Peace', but stupid stuff with no emotional content that could disturb my mind. Now, a decade later, I can call up the fond memories of my dad, from before those terrible times. I hope you too find some avenue of relief. Please take care.