Most everything that is going on now is because of Neptune and Chiron

[sandyshoes17]

67. Doing the same thing this week

but today tested everything I have.
I've been reading Oneness, great book and I enjoy reading it everyday, recently started reading The Disappearance of the Universe, thanks ric. And was so into it all this week, being a lost feeling week. Well today erased it all.
spent the day with Mom, and my repub sister and family. It all started when my mom said her neighbor Mahamad's son came to visit them, he just got back from Pakistan and brought them a gift. My mom said he grew up so nice, he looks like a movie star. I could see them squirming. She said he's how you say a hunk. My dad chimed in and said he just bought a mercedes , that new one, cls, or something, the one with the long nose, it's very sporty, so my dad when on to say how hard he works and he saved his money for it. My parents remember him when he was a young teenager when they first moved here, and everyone was apprehensive of them, but my dad felt it his duty to let them know how things were done here and they became friends over the years. Any way my brother inlaw says what does he do. My dad says he drives oil tankers, and works alot of over time. That was it all hell broke lose after that. "thats whats wrong with this country, they let terrorist drive those trucks, he could drive it into the Brooklyn Bridge, blah, blah.
I couldn't contain myself and chimed in. The whole day all they talked about is all the nationalities they hate, and how everyone is taking their jobs, than came the subject of terrorism, I said why are you belittling our guys. They are up on this and are catching people left and right. He got crazy and said I'm not belittling them but someone is going to get thru, you mark my words, we will be hit if Obama wins. Ha that was the moment.
I can't deal with people like that, I ignore them on line, but what do you do when they are the only family you have.
Help!!! Did I create this, I was seriously believing that I created all that is in my world, but this has me on a serious pause. Is it too much DU, am I doing this? I am so confused right now. I would consider any words of wisdom from you all. I had to take a shower when I left there. I gave you a brief summary, but it was very intense and I could not repeat half the words that were said. In the meanwhile my niece was telling me all the nationalities that she hates, the word hate was said at least 20 times.
Very bad, I lived away for 20 yrs and for the first time I'm sorry I moved back. I need to meditate right now. thanks for listening.