Most everything that is going on now is because of Neptune and Chiron

[mntleo2]

70. I have been working on forgiveness and it isn't coming :o(

I USED to be one to forgive. This was not an easy process, but I learned it was good on so many levels. I came to understand that when Jesus taught to forgive "70 X 7" it did not always mean 490 different things, it might mean the exercise of forgiving ONE thing 490 times.

I learned that the process of forgiveness was important to my soul and for others. But now because of a heueueuege issue that happened to me, I am unable to forgive ~ and it involves some lifelong people in my life with whom I was extremely close. I will be turning 60 this summer and it seems so wrong to have come to this place where I believe at my age, I should be forgiving more, not like this! Therapy is making me work on it, but it is slow and at my age, I am afraid it will follow me into other lives if I do not find a way to forgive. My intellect knows it is the right thing to do, but my heart is not so sure ...

Crying as I write this ....

Cat in Seattle