to read that things got a bit better for you! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
For the past year things have been changing for the better for me. I am giving myself permission to live without the demand of enormous production. The only new insight I had over the last few days is that I am really a neurotic work-a-holic and that even though I have been gradually slowing down, I have not been changing the part of me that demands everything to be just so all the time. The part of me that needs the kitchen sink always clean before I can think. The part of me that needs a clean floor before I can sit down and rest. Some of this is fine- I do live on a farm and it would be a pigsty in moments if I did not try to have one small 800 ft of clean mud/dust/dander-free tidy space. But I don't need to be so fussy about it.
That was my big realization, that I have to work on changing this part of my personality.
I am sorry for everyone who is so tired- you all have my sympathy!
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