My brother passed away last week. His penchant for not taking care [View all]

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of his health, and living in a world of ideas and knowledge instead, did him in. He had huge anxiety with the covid pandemic and teaching at 3 separate universities online with 3 different platforms. He was not a computer person. This year of covid, and living away from his partner, was especially tough. There were so many paths he could have taken to better health over the years. We go over what could have happened to save him - to no avail. He was getting things in order but he ran out of time. He died from an GI bleed. He had the best partner a man could have. They were intellectual equivalents. They were very kind to each other. She adored him for the 8 happy years they were together, as did he - her. His life changed when he met her. You could just tell. They traveled the world. She is beyond devastated. He had friends who he partied/debated with who will miss him terribly too. They loved the philosopher in him. We all did. My family is coping by planning and reminiscing, with visits in the village green with cousins, all of us in our covid bubbles: one bubble talking to another and then moving on like some sad square dance. Everything is being done online, be it the slideshow for the obituary or the 100+ Zoom meeting his friends had in Japan. Of course there will be no funerals this year. I am terrified of what it will feel like when there are not so many things to do or people reaching out. I help myself by helping others and i will not know what to do with the gaping hole in my life when things return to 'normal' and others don't need me so much. He always needed me. I only saw my brother for a few weeks every year but spoke online or by email every week. He was my big brother. He wasn't always easy for family to deal with because he was so bright and eccentric but found a life where he belonged and he had a bright future in front of him on several fronts. Please send vibes and prayers to my dad, my other brother and sister and, his friends in Kyoto, Japan and around the world, and his lovely partner. He was 59 years old. We love you!

This is my 100,000 post. The cosmos is ****ed.