Bereavement

barbtries

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70. it really has.

Mon Jul 19, 2021, 11:49 AM

Jul 2021

I remember talking to the detective early on and he asked me how I was doing and I said, "It's pretty lonely." After not very long you're left alone with your grief while the people who know and love you best no long get you. As hard as i try to express it I will fall short every time.

Today is as good as it can be. I'm crying a lot but also feeling a lot of love. I am satisfied that Bekah will never be forgotten; she generated a lot of love in her time. That did not die.

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My daughter died 20 years ago today. [View all] barbtries Jul 2021 OP

What a terrible milestone to have to mark bottomofthehill Jul 2021 #1

Thank you bottomofthehill. barbtries Jul 2021 #3

She was a beautiful young lady. Peace be with you. Fla Dem Jul 2021 #17

thank you Fla Dem barbtries Jul 2021 #36

Your love for Bekah throbs in every word of your post. Take care of yourself. She'd want that. nt Atticus Jul 2021 #2

Thank you Atticus. barbtries Jul 2021 #4

Beautiful, beautiful Bekah. MLAA Jul 2021 #14

thank you. barbtries Jul 2021 #15

I cannot imagine your pain UpInArms Jul 2021 #5

thank you UpInArms barbtries Jul 2021 #18

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss SheltieLover Jul 2021 #6

I am so sorry SheltieLover barbtries Jul 2021 #20

Ty, Barb SheltieLover Jul 2021 #23

A lovely photo, she is beautiful. Croney Jul 2021 #7

Croney, barbtries Jul 2021 #21

As did I Jilly_in_VA Jul 2021 #45

oh Jilly. barbtries Jul 2021 #51

Well Jilly_in_VA Jul 2021 #53

yes. barbtries Jul 2021 #57

the hardest thing known to womankind. mopinko Jul 2021 #8

Thank you mopinko. barbtries Jul 2021 #22

there's a meme out there about kurt vonnegut and his fave uncle. mopinko Jul 2021 #29

it does matter. barbtries Jul 2021 #39

🕯 blm Jul 2021 #9

There is no heartbreak more devastating. quaint Jul 2021 #10

so true. barbtries Jul 2021 #27

... 2naSalit Jul 2021 #11

I cannot imagine what you have and continue to go through. I am sending you love. MLAA Jul 2021 #12

I feel the love. barbtries Jul 2021 #28

May her memory be a blessing. TheRickles Jul 2021 #13

thank you TheRickles barbtries Jul 2021 #30

She was beautiful. AmBlue Jul 2021 #79

My condolences YoshidaYui Jul 2021 #16

thank you YoshidaYui barbtries Jul 2021 #31

Still in Hospital YoshidaYui Jul 2021 #34

to you as well barbtries Jul 2021 #40

So sorry for your loss. Firestorm49 Jul 2021 #19

I'm so sorry LittleGirl Jul 2021 #24

thank you LittleGirl barbtries Jul 2021 #58

What a sad and yet beautiful post malaise Jul 2021 #25

Thank you Malaise! barbtries Jul 2021 #63

How horrific. Barb. I am so sorry that she was taken from you like that. I can't imagine life Evolve Dammit Jul 2021 #26

well, here's what I think NJCher Jul 2021 #32

I agree with you. barbtries Jul 2021 #44

I'm a member of the "The Bekah Church..." too. momta Jul 2021 #56

momta, thank you barbtries Jul 2021 #69

Condolences my friend FakeNoose Jul 2021 #33

thank you FakeNoose. barbtries Jul 2021 #46

Oh dear, MuseRider Jul 2021 #35

thank you MuseRider barbtries Jul 2021 #47

I'm so sorry! GPV Jul 2021 #37

thank you GPV. barbtries Jul 2021 #49

I'm so very sorry for your loss. yardwork Jul 2021 #38

thank you yardwork. barbtries Jul 2021 #50

You honor her memory with your courage. yardwork Jul 2021 #78

Haunting... Snackshack Jul 2021 #41

yes. that's the nature of this grief. barbtries Jul 2021 #54

(((hugs))) samnsara Jul 2021 #42

Thank you so much for these lovely pictures. colorado_ufo Jul 2021 #43

I'm so glad. barbtries Jul 2021 #64

I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your dear Bekkah. lark Jul 2021 #48

thank you lark barbtries Jul 2021 #65

I am thinking of you today MontanaMama Jul 2021 #52

thank you MontanaMama barbtries Jul 2021 #66

I am so very sorry Barbtries. lucca18 Jul 2021 #55

thank you! barbtries Jul 2021 #67

I believe what you said in your post is a poem already. llmart Jul 2021 #59

Thank you Ilmart barbtries Jul 2021 #68

What a poignant expression of a parent's grief PatSeg Jul 2021 #60

it really has. barbtries Jul 2021 #70

One of the things that really bothers me PatSeg Jul 2021 #73

I think barbtries Jul 2021 #76

I've spent many years working on our family tree PatSeg Jul 2021 #77

Losing a child is something hard to comprehend. panader0 Jul 2021 #61

thank you panader0 barbtries Jul 2021 #71

I can't imagine your pain cate94 Jul 2021 #62

I think you wrote a poem here, barbtries, and it's absolutely, poignantly beautiful. JudyM Jul 2021 #72

Thank you JudyM. barbtries Jul 2021 #75

I am so sorry that your beautiful Bekah mnhtnbb Jul 2021 #74

🕯 Duppers Jul 2021 #80

Deepest condolences for your heartbreaking loss. Dark n Stormy Knight Jul 2021 #81

Thank you for all of those wonderful pictures of your daughter. PoindexterOglethorpe Jul 2021 #82

I'm so sorry for your loss. barbtries Jul 2021 #83

No matter how it happens, it's devastating. PoindexterOglethorpe Jul 2021 #84