Need suggestions...

[pnwest]

9. Depression manifests in many ways that may not

register to you as “feeling depressed”.

Inability to focus is a big one.

Sometimes, making a conscious decision to let go of the grief - to DECIDE that it’s time to look up, look outwards, and focus on the world again - feels as though you’re betraying their memory. Is it possible that you feel guilt whenever you try to let your mind focus on a task instead of living actively in grief?

I’m not criticizing your grieving timeline in any way. I am suggesting that being so “stuck” at nearly two years is worrisome. You are allowed to decide for yourself, that it’s time to move past the trauma. All the grief, love and memories remain - just give yourself permission to let go of the shock and trauma, and let the grief soften and ripen to the next stage.

Sending healing vibes.