Need suggestions...

[Otto_Harper]

11. I understand what you are experiencing, I'm there myself

The one thing I can offer that may help you understand the condition, and perhaps work forward a little is this...

You were together for a long time, and, your brain re-wired itself to include your partner in its normal operation. That connection is now silent, and so, one of the sources of information and affirmation that it programmed itself to include in all processes is missing.

I can offer no easy solution, other than that once you understand the issue, and how it is impacting the executive centers of your brain, you can take charge a little higher up in your thought processes and recognize the origins of the paralysis that is impacting you.

This understanding helps me a little. Only a little, but, that makes forward progress go just a bit better.