Bereavement
In reply to the discussion: I'm in MN for my mother's funeral [View all]BComplex
(9,078 posts)but so in awe of your eulogy for your mom, that you've shared with us here. I have a whole host of alcoholics/addicts in my family, and the ones who have been brought back to a fuller, more sane-looking life by the Twelve Steps would love what you shared here. It just makes my heart feel full of love, and I feel grateful for your mom's work, and for your family.
Moms and dads aren't like real people: They carry some sort of primal, supernatural power in our lives, whether for good or for bad, but almost always more powerful than they would probably wish for. Losing them is just going to be a lonely kind of difficult, because so much of our parents are imprinted on our entire view of the world, and our view of ourselves. And for that reason, I sympathize with your loss.
Your grief is your own special gift to the relationship with your mom, and it honors the sincerity of the love you still feel for her. I'm sending you a big hug, my friend.