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I was never a one night stand kind of guy.
I could pontificate on how my attitude on that issue has evolved, but wouldn't want to get my first-ever DU alert by offending prying non-male eyes.
I could be open to it. Any port in a storm.
Edited to say, thanks, I appreciate the support of everyone here, it has made a difference in how I feel about myself.
And that is actually the real battle, the only battle. Once I got past the initial presenting problems, depression, anxiety, and severe frequent panic attack, it all became about attitude. No one in "real life" except my mother, who broke me down with tearful questions but has been very supportive, even knows about this - well, my employer and coworker knew there were problems, but were respectful enough not to push for details, even when I essentially took the entire month of Sept off as a medical leave.
My MH issue is pretty unapparent to the outside world, I pop 3 pills of the mood stabilizer lamictal daily, usually in my car or office. And, I act a little strange, not in any bad way, just doing new things that are so out of character for how I used to be prior to this, like becoming a gym rat at 47 , when I was the awkward, bookish, non-athletic nerd 30 years ago in HS. Grew a beard, lost weight, bought a bike and rode well over a thousand miles, joined the gym, hired a couple of trainers to work with me, upgraded my look and wardrobe a la 'Dancing In The Dark' ("I want to change my clothes, my hair, my face" - vintage Springsteen), spend a lot more time away from home on outside activities. Other than those few minor things, ok, they're major things, no one knows anything. I do all the things I always did, go to work, laundry, housework, walk the dog, etc.
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