Finally hit a breaking point today

[XanaDUer2]

18. I need higher self-esteem

Less ppl pleasing and approval seeking. Its very hard for me to not reach out. It really is. I feel invisible sometimes. But I'm tired of it always being me. I'm the one texting happy holidays. Wishing birthday. I'm just girding my loins and deciding that i just need to suck it up and realize they really don't care. A cousin i was super close to as kids ignored me for yrs. I reached out to him thanksgiving. Of course i did. He's never going to ask me how i am.

I wouldn't bake one fucking thing more for any of them. If theyre offended by your email, tough shit. Sometimes you have to get real. You said if you thanked me, this doesn't apply. I'm certain the complaining ones never said thank you, are embarrassed, and are now attempting to project their bullshit onto you.

Truly don't waste your money time and energy anymore. Give that to a shelter or a poor kid needing a xmas gift.