I can actually physically feel the heaviness [View all]

[MissMillie]

We lost mom last Tuesday.

There's been some tears, of course.

And some make-busy work... picking blueberries, tending to the garden, cooking and baking, household chores, etc.

And of course there's the funeral arrangements (no small feat considering the pandemic and the restrictions--private funeral which means finalizing an invite list and getting the invites out). And making sure Al and I have what we need to attend--do we have something appropriate to wear? will it fit?

And for the past 2 days, just thinking about it--I'm so overwhelmed that it feels like it's hard to even breathe.

I'm of course relieved that she's not struggling anymore.

I miss my mom. I keep thinking that she'd know what to say or do to make me feel better.