It has been 4 years since my husband died [View all]

[Marthe48]

Even though it is hard, I keep moving along. Some days I miss him more than others. Sometimes I have detailed dreams which he features in. I notice that in my dreams other people rarely speak, but we communicate. This year, we would have had our 50th anniversary. I'm thinking about how to observe that milestone.

I thought yesterday that I might put some of his pictures away, but felt such a pang that I decided I wouldn't. I was counting the days since his death on my calendar. I knew I was paying less attention to the passing days. One of the other DUers sent me a wall calendar, and as I filled in my monthly notes, I realized I hadn't counted days since the beginning of November. I felt like I am stronger than I think I am.

My neighbor's husband passed away a year ago tomorrow. I've tried to be there for her this last year. I listen as she talks and I hope she finds a way to live with her loss. It takes time.

I appreciate being able to post in this topic. All of you who read or read and post have helped me move along this hard path. Thank you.