barbtries
barbtries's Journalup in the middle of the night.
I was sleeping just fine then I had a dream of my son. We were on the phone and he said, "I have bad news," and I immediately opened my eyes with that dread in my stomach feeling - that was 3 hours ago. still up.
last night it was my grandson on the phone and he said, "Can I come in?" and I realized he was standing at my door and I woke up torn whether to welcome him or not.
The grandson is the fear. He's living rough, has an addiction disease, and is not living near any of us. Constant worry that while I'm awake, I avoid thinking about a lot of the time in order to remain functional and not be hounded by my helplessness to help him.
sometimes writing it helps to alleviate the fear and clear the way for a restful sleep.
sorry if this is the wrong forum.
a quote from John Collins on BlueSky
https://bsky.app/profile/logicallyjc.bsky.social/post/3lbmgmshq7k26]well I can't figure out how to display the post, but it's by John Collins:
this describes me to a T right now.
An outlet in the kitchen was sparking
and it killed the microwave (fortunately temporarily). So I went on to my local town reddit and searched for an electrician recommendation. Two companies popped up. I contacted one and asked them to come out today.
Then i got to thinking. I don't know these people. What can I find out about them. So I went to the about page, got the guy's name, and looked him up on fb. His own posts were neutral, but his friends were magats and I do not want to do business with magats.
So I did the same with the second electrician. I found his fb page, and this is what he posted on 06N0v2024:
the second company was out by noon today, did a great job at a good price, and we had a wonderful visit at the same time.
I will make this a habit going forward i think. I resent every penny I give supporting people who are poised to destroy my country and hurt and/or kill untold numbers of people as they do so.
I only took down all my Kamala signs while they were working in my kitchen. I wouldn't trust a maga electrician past my front door, not to sabotage my job, not to rip me off for money, nothing at all. Then i see a tik tok this evening with a guy saying don't give your money to these people! and so it helped me believe that I am not so extreme after all.
I don't see the American people the way I did prior to the election. I just don't. Something broke in me that day. They don't get to do that again if I can help it.
a silver lining.
I haven't seen a clip of TCFSF talking, lying, hating, propagandizing wildly, since 04Nov2024.
jeez I nearly didn't notice it. was too busy fretting about all the damage about to happen. (and taking care of necessary personal business)
Just think if he'd lost he'd already be out there throwing rallies. so there's that.
Andy Borowitz not being funny about it
https://www.borowitzreport.com/p/about-last-night?r=33s8c&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=webI have plenty to say about last night’s dumpster fire but today I want to take a break from jokes. Many of you are in pain and I don’t want to make light of that.
You shouldn’t misinterpret my pause, however, as acquiescence or resignation. We all deserve a moment to curl up in the fetal position. But when that moment is over, I want to do what I can to make life better for my children and grandchildren (not to mention people I don’t happen to be related to). I hope you’ll feel that way, too.
Remaining silent and surrendering to despair is exactly what fascists want us to do. So let’s not.
Thanks, as always, for supporting my work. You’re why I do what I do—and why I’ll continue doing it.
Stay tuned.
All my love,
Andy
I thought this was worth sharing as I am spending today figuratively curled up in a fetal position.
hugs to everyone on DU and all across the country and the world feeling this same pain.
I'm not sure it would be possible
to overstate the level of racism, misogyny, and all purpose bigotry that exists gleefully and hatefully in this fucked up country, which is about to fuck up the world and the planet it inhabits.
or to overstate the deleterious effects of incessant right wing propaganda fouling our discourse for decades.
or to overstate the failure of the "free" press and the current SCOTUS.
we are a nation betrayed. we could not keep it, Mr Franklin.
I'll probably be dead by the time the abject poverty and overt acts performed to destroy us have borne fruition. Or maybe not. I thought I was so lucky to have lived long enough to see the first Black president AND the first woman president, but no. Apparently I lived long enough to be there when it all went to hell. But it's the next generations who will be living in that hell.
It's early the next morning. I find I cannot even express the level of devastation I am trying to process. I am not well. My country is not well. I have family members who are celebrating this as I grieve.
I worked the election yesterday and had an epiphany. It dawned on me profoundly that so many of the people who voted for this destruction of democracy and the erasure of the middle class and the expansion of the destitute population really didn't apprehend the full consequences of their vote. They think life will go on as normal. They think we'll have elections that are meaningful going forward. They don't think, essentially: they don't think. They are so comforted by being part of the hating class, of thinking they're better than others based on nothing but their color and station in life. They hate liberals just because.
I just really believed that there were more of us.
Sorry, I will not be able to
provide gift articles from the WP anymore. I canceled my subscription.
I feel quite sad. The way the 4th estate has failed this country is truly lamentable.
ETA just paid off my Prime card and canceled amazon prime. first i looked through my orders so I knew what to get my son for christmas. But as it is set up i have until Feb2025.
Number 37 this morning. I voted!
Durham NC, 1st day of early voting, let's all get out and vote asap!
Yesterday it was mentioned that every day it will be known who voted, and these names dropping off the lists that the campaign has will help them to target the people who have not yet voted. If that is true, I expect that by tomorrow, the incessant texts I've been getting may ease up. But probably not, because a lot of time they are begging for money. I have donated several times to Kamala's campaign but this year I simply do not have the money the way I did in the past. Anyhow.
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The Elections Master Class That Shows How and Why Kamala Harris Wins the 2024 Presidential Election
This is a fabulous history lesson on the last 124 years of presidential elections. Democrats! IF we vote, we win. #Vote #VoteBlueToSaveAmerica #VoteBlueForCommonSense #VoteBlueForWomensRights #VoteBlueForTheOnesYouLove
A Recovering MAGA Tells Her Story
?si=ffWfpkd8CtIVdidWReally interesting. I was annoyed by her as she told the tale of her republican beginnings, but as she explained how she learned and grew I ended up with a lot of respect for her.
sadly so many people do not have the innate empathy required and are too comfortable with their bigotries for this to happen for them.
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