LiberalLoner
LiberalLoner's JournalI'm so sorry. I wish I knew how to make things better.
I’m just so sorry. I feel like anything I say is completely inadequate.
I wish I could make you a cup of hot chocolate or anything you might like and sit with you awhile.
Feeling kind of proud of myself.
The last few years, a large group of people including a couple of celebrities and my family of origin, have worked together in an effort to bully me into suicide, using social media.
I finally had the presence of mind to go no contact with all of my family of origin and shut all the doors in social media to stymy the efforts of the celebrities and their flying monkeys to murder me by making me commit suicide.
I’m proud of myself for shutting those toxic people out of my life now and practicing loving self-care instead.
That is a big accomplishment for someone coming from an abusive family.
We usually take all the abuse and come back for more.
Got a thrill this morning. Did a search on google for "pastel art" and
My painting I posted on Reddit (not one of my best, honestly) was result number 16. Flaming red tree. Two other paintings of mine posted on Reddit were within the top fifty search results.
I showed it to my husband and he laughed and said, hey, you are famous! 🤣🤣🤣
Happy Thanksgiving DU. I am grateful for all of you and for this site.
May all of you have things to be grateful for, always, even as we head into these dark times.
Thank you all for helping me these past few years.
I just found out today my father, decades ago, superglued a small Yorkshire Terrier's lips together as punishment
Because the dog was locked in a small room 24/7 by him with no human interaction, and the dog acted out his distress by chewing on the wallpaper.
He also took a pet kitten of my stepsister and threw it over the fence, causing the animal not only physical damage but the cat never came back.
He also (and this is something I already knew about) beat up 12 and 9 year old girls (my two stepsisters and their friend) and then denied it.
He also spent his life choking, smacking, hitting women and only stopped leaving bruises when he finally got arrested for it in 1987.
He has also held loaded guns to the heads of his wives (he’s had a lot of wives).
I won’t go into the stuff he did to me and my siblings.
I tried so hard to forgive him and get along with him in spite of how he always put me down every time I talked to him and in spite of all the abuse from my childhood, but somehow knowing about him super glueing the dog’s lips helped me understand, truly understand, the man who made my childhood hell on earth, is truly a monster.
I used to think maybe I was a bad kid and deserved the abuse.
But that dog did not deserve what he did to him.
My father is just a monster, that’s all.
And he is dying now.
May God, if He exists, show my father the same mercy he showed to that dog snd cat.
I thought this article about resources for moving to another country might interest some DUers.
https://www.usatoday.com/story/travel/2024/11/06/she-hits-refresh-supports-women-move-abroad-to-europe/76047963007/Made this recipe tonight, shaped like French bread. Looked ugly but tasted wonderful, perfect crust, light interior.
https://pinchofyum.com/no-knead-breadMe too. I always remember the horrifying story my mother told me,
About our neighbors in Montana. My mother was taking my older siblings to get the new polio vaccine that had just come out, and offered to our neighbor to drive her kids too to get the free vaccination.
Our neighbor laughed and said God would protect her children. (She was very religious, a Baptist although I don’t know what denomination of Baptist.)
Her oldest daughter ended up with a leg brace for life due to disabilities from Polio, after our neighbor refused the free vaccines.
Our neighbor did not blame herself for one second. Said it was God’s will.
I do not expect any self reflection from the Trump voters.
Hey everybody? If you seriously feel the need to leave the country (as I do) then
A suggestion.
It’s hard to get accepted to live in Europe, Canada, other places we might think of.
I’ve been looking at Egypt. Because I lived there for a year, 1990-1991, stationed there in the Army.
They are very tolerant of expats. Very friendly and helpful. Cost of living is 65% of US cost of living.
You can get a retirement visa with only this…show proof of ability to support yourself financially (maybe about 2,000 dollars a month), show no criminal record, show no serious communicable diseases like HIV etc.
I will post some videos about living in Egypt as an ex-Pat tomorrow.
It’s not as crazy an idea as it might seem.
I felt safer in Egypt than here in the U.S.
Cost of Living > Egypt
Cost of Living in Egypt
Select city in Egypt:
Summary of cost of living in Egypt:
A family of four estimated monthly costs are 1,172.1$ (57,682.0EG£) without rent.
A single person estimated monthly costs are 330.7$ (16,271.9EG£) without rent.
Cost of living in Egypt is, on average, 70.6% lower than in United States.
Rent in Egypt is, on average, 91.0% lower than in United States.
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https://www.expat.com/en/destination/africa/egypt/
P.S. I’m not saying move there without first doing a ton of research. Talk with expats on line, watch videos, spend dozens or hundreds of hours on research before deciding. And I’m not saying Egypt is right for anyone except me. Well, maybe I am because I am offering it up as a possibility people may not have considered. But for sure do tons of research, don’t just take my word for anything. I just felt the need to offer it up as an idea. And I am truly trying to talk my husband into moving us there, so you can tell I do have the courage of my convictions.
P.P.S. As far as the weather goes, not all that different from Southern California, actually.
A kind poster asked me to post my wave painting when I finished, so I'm posting it.
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Thank you for anyone who looks at this.
The painting didn’t turn out as well as I’d hoped.
Soft pastel. 12x9 on UArt 500.
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